No Tittle.

My friends, neighbors, colleagues are getting married. Some even have kids. Their parents feel proud of their sons just because they did the most likely thing – i.e. to get married to a girl and produce a child! On the other hand here I am, facing criticism of parents for not agreeing to marry a girl. The future is most uncertain with the uneasiness of coming out, still lurking. Many times I have questioned myself that why it is so difficult for gays which straights get by default. I grin when the parents of some of the most undeserving boys are seen making plans for getting their sons married. I know they will succeed eventually. I laugh when I see some newly married boys ill treating their wives or not doing enough to do what their wives rightfully deserve. For sure, they don’t realize the importance of getting a life partner who will be there for them, no matter what. I see some young couples with their little 1-2 years old babies, and wonder how come that I might not become a better parent! Sometimes I look for some ways of killing my desire to have kids. I know that I might get into a relationship despite  facing wrath of my parents and hatred of society, but it will be really difficult for ‘us’ to have kids no matter how much I long for it. I know, even after just contending myself with my life partner and shunning the thought of having our kids, I would still be considered a dishonored and impure person. No matter how much better couple ‘we’ would be, they would still look upon us with contempt. I don’t even want to know – why?